Feeling defeated....

Sick to death of the never enough money situation. I wish I had hind-sight, that could really pay the bills. Spend the whole day yesterday brain-storming and now it just feels like an F5 dismantled my brain. Trying to repeat the phrase EXPECT NOTHING, ACCEPT EVERYTHING as God's plan. It might be easier to expect and accept if I had some idea of what I am supposed to be doing, even some sort of clue that I am on the right path.