Getting sick when you are trying your hardest to workout is not fun. I have tried to keep up with my schedule pre-5K but it has been difficult since I have been coughing and having a hard time keeping my breath. I finally went to the doctor and he said I would just have to let it run its course because antibiotics would not help. Since Monday I have not walked with my regular group but did go out on my own on Tuesday only to come home and sleep all afternoon because I was so exhausted. I haven't slept good in a few weeks, it seems like my mind will not shut off. It just keeps going on and on with things that either I should be doing, or could add to my plate.

A friend gave me an ipod shuffle to help motivate me while working out, but it is not working. I am hoping to get an idea of what kind of a job I should be pursuing soon. I am so tired of not having income of my own. I have had some people te

ll me to market my cakes more, but I am afraid that I will be underpricing them, or that it will no longer be fun for me.

Can't sleep, too hot.

I hate it when it doesn't cool off enough at night and you just feel like a sweatbox all night long and on top of that I am procrastinating. I have two cakes that need to be frosted and should have been done already but I am of course putting it off until the last minute. So as I laid awake in bed, sweating and thinking about everything that STILL needs to get done, I thought why not just get up and frost those cakes. I got up and made some coffee, loaded the dishwasher and stared at the cakes for awhile and then thought, let's see what is going on in blogger world. Here I am! awake, tired, still hot but drinking coffee anyway, and trying not to wake anyone up. 12 hours until the party starts and I feel like I have 1200 things yet to do...... can't wait for it to be over!

I am still living off the high of completing a 5K, but I have been sick at the same time too. Ever since the race I have had a cough, sore throat and stuffy nose. Each morning that I wake up it is worse than the day before and I am really, really wishing it would go away. It has made it difficult to continue with the walking group but I keep telling myself if I don't do it, I won't do it. I had tried to add more workouts in at home but that has so far proved to be unsuccessful. I REALLY, REALLY am hoping to see some changes soon but I know that the scale hasn't budged more than 1 or 2 lbs.

I keep having thoughts about getting a job. I think of places that I would like to work and then I think about how many people would have to help me out with childcare just so I can go to that job.........it seems like wasted efforts. I wish the right one would just knock on my door, or fall in my lap. If I am going to wish for things though, I will just wish to win the lottery so I don't have to work at all. I would REALLY REALLY just like to go back to school, but that would just add more to the debt.

I wish that my photography and cake making paid me enough to not have to worry about working but it doesn't.......

Off to a slow start......but now a rolling stone

I haven't posted anything new in about 2 weeks.....lots of things have happened. Mainly though the weather has been SO.....SO......SO nice that we have been outside every waking minute and therefore I haven't been on the computer much. Solet's go back and recap a bit. First weekend in July we went to Denver to our niece's 1st birthday whereI made her an ELMO cake. She was so happy! Then I had my first VERY FRUSTRATING attempt at taking fireworks photos in CO and then on the 4th in WY. On the 9th my sweet baby turned 2!!!!! OMG! How did that happen??? And now TODAY on the 13th of JULY 2010 I completed my very first 5K. I had planned to do this later in the month at the NH CASA 5K in Spearfish, SD but some family obligations came up and I decided to bite the bullet and DO IT! I stressed out about it for at least the last 4 nights not sleeping well and having weird dreams. I feared that I would be the last person on the route, it was a parade route and I feared that I would get heckled by the crowd or chased by animals or the worst one, that I would keel over. Low and behold half of that came true. Obviously I did not keel over, and I will say that I did not get chased by animals. But I was the last person on the course for quite a time and I DID GET HECKLED......REALLY people BOOED and made comments about me walking and not running and I thought to myself...."I hope you choke on your popcorn and cotton candy fat ass" All in all it was a success and I am looking forward to doing it again next month.

This week is still action packed, two more walks with the lady walkers, a playdate, party planning and preparation and two cakes to make......feels good to be busy but I feel like I have to time to connect with blogger friends....but I guess at least the house will be clean ;)