Oh my GOODNESS!!

Q: What have I been doing?

A: Walking, walking, running, jogging....... last Saturday the 14th, I participated in my 2nd* (*official) 5k. I say that because my husband and I mapped out a route from our house that we could use to get more experience and practice our times. But it proved to be very unsuccessful for me because my time went down by 9 minutes. I don't know if it was the fact that I knew it wasn't a real race or if it was just the day but I was not happy with the results. So needless to say when we arrived at the Shane Shatto/Remember the Wyoming 8 5k/10k I did not have high hopes. Once the race got going, things changed and I began to push myself. I have lots of room for improvement, but what I was pleased with is the fact that I found myself setting more goals and reaching them. I finished sprinting with my husband at my side encouraging me with a final time of 48:16

Q: What's next?

A: I am trying to set more schedules. Any schedules. Trying to get the kids to either nap or have "quiet" time at the same time every day so I can then plan for at home workouts, or photo editing or blogging.....whatever basically. I am hoping the schedules will help me to be more successful and to get more things accomplished. Also, more training. I am going to do (2) 5k's in September. The first one on Labor Day in my home town of Winner, SD. and the second one in Ft. Collins again with my husband. We are hoping to make it a monthly activity and long term to complete a 5k in each of the 50 states.

Q: What's on you mind?

A: Lots of things really. I have been questioning my decision to be a group leader in my local MOPS groups. Wondering if I have bit off more than I can chew......wishing that we would have went ahead and got Alexandria in pre-school. I think she would really enjoy it, but we decided to wait because the potty training has been unsuccessful and the cost became to much of a factor. I found a job that I thought I would really like and it would be close to home. (lunchlady at the school in our neighborhood) but they didn't even call me for an interview....which makes me think WHY? The Hell Not?? So therefore, I am back to wishing I had my own money, wondering how to make some, and wondering what I can go without?

I created some pages on Facebook for my photo and cake businesses and am trying to market them hoping they could answer some of those questions.

Hopefully, I will be back sooner with updates on all of these things.

To be continued.......

Getting sick when you are trying your hardest to workout is not fun. I have tried to keep up with my schedule pre-5K but it has been difficult since I have been coughing and having a hard time keeping my breath. I finally went to the doctor and he said I would just have to let it run its course because antibiotics would not help. Since Monday I have not walked with my regular group but did go out on my own on Tuesday only to come home and sleep all afternoon because I was so exhausted. I haven't slept good in a few weeks, it seems like my mind will not shut off. It just keeps going on and on with things that either I should be doing, or could add to my plate.

A friend gave me an ipod shuffle to help motivate me while working out, but it is not working. I am hoping to get an idea of what kind of a job I should be pursuing soon. I am so tired of not having income of my own. I have had some people te

ll me to market my cakes more, but I am afraid that I will be underpricing them, or that it will no longer be fun for me.

Can't sleep, too hot.

I hate it when it doesn't cool off enough at night and you just feel like a sweatbox all night long and on top of that I am procrastinating. I have two cakes that need to be frosted and should have been done already but I am of course putting it off until the last minute. So as I laid awake in bed, sweating and thinking about everything that STILL needs to get done, I thought why not just get up and frost those cakes. I got up and made some coffee, loaded the dishwasher and stared at the cakes for awhile and then thought, let's see what is going on in blogger world. Here I am! awake, tired, still hot but drinking coffee anyway, and trying not to wake anyone up. 12 hours until the party starts and I feel like I have 1200 things yet to do...... can't wait for it to be over!

I am still living off the high of completing a 5K, but I have been sick at the same time too. Ever since the race I have had a cough, sore throat and stuffy nose. Each morning that I wake up it is worse than the day before and I am really, really wishing it would go away. It has made it difficult to continue with the walking group but I keep telling myself if I don't do it, I won't do it. I had tried to add more workouts in at home but that has so far proved to be unsuccessful. I REALLY, REALLY am hoping to see some changes soon but I know that the scale hasn't budged more than 1 or 2 lbs.

I keep having thoughts about getting a job. I think of places that I would like to work and then I think about how many people would have to help me out with childcare just so I can go to that job.........it seems like wasted efforts. I wish the right one would just knock on my door, or fall in my lap. If I am going to wish for things though, I will just wish to win the lottery so I don't have to work at all. I would REALLY REALLY just like to go back to school, but that would just add more to the debt.

I wish that my photography and cake making paid me enough to not have to worry about working but it doesn't.......

Off to a slow start......but now a rolling stone

I haven't posted anything new in about 2 weeks.....lots of things have happened. Mainly though the weather has been SO.....SO......SO nice that we have been outside every waking minute and therefore I haven't been on the computer much. Solet's go back and recap a bit. First weekend in July we went to Denver to our niece's 1st birthday whereI made her an ELMO cake. She was so happy! Then I had my first VERY FRUSTRATING attempt at taking fireworks photos in CO and then on the 4th in WY. On the 9th my sweet baby turned 2!!!!! OMG! How did that happen??? And now TODAY on the 13th of JULY 2010 I completed my very first 5K. I had planned to do this later in the month at the NH CASA 5K in Spearfish, SD but some family obligations came up and I decided to bite the bullet and DO IT! I stressed out about it for at least the last 4 nights not sleeping well and having weird dreams. I feared that I would be the last person on the route, it was a parade route and I feared that I would get heckled by the crowd or chased by animals or the worst one, that I would keel over. Low and behold half of that came true. Obviously I did not keel over, and I will say that I did not get chased by animals. But I was the last person on the course for quite a time and I DID GET HECKLED......REALLY people BOOED and made comments about me walking and not running and I thought to myself...."I hope you choke on your popcorn and cotton candy fat ass" All in all it was a success and I am looking forward to doing it again next month.

This week is still action packed, two more walks with the lady walkers, a playdate, party planning and preparation and two cakes to make......feels good to be busy but I feel like I have to time to connect with blogger friends....but I guess at least the house will be clean ;)

Back again! In the last week I have had far to many PITY PARTIES! ugh.....I am so sick of feeling down and getting knocked down by ridiculous people and their back talk and blowing smoke up my ASS!

{Whoops!} looks like you just got invited to another one of my parties.

So I kind of fell off the walking wagon in the past 7 days. I walked for 6 miles last Monday and then not again until today. I hate that it is such a struggle to get motivated. I also now have some family obligations that may force me to not attend the NHCASA 5K..... but as a back up I have a local 5K that I am going to do. I am debating whether to register as a runner or a walker. AND it is in 14 days......SO I REALLY NEED TO GET MY SHIT TOGETHER!!

I have to many irons on the fire.....I just picked up another 4 books from the library adding that to the 5 I already have and the 1 I bought at CBC'10 (thank you Matt Townsend) I am trying to teach myself Photoshop since I can't afford to take a class at the college right now. I have over 500 photos to edit and post in about 300 different places, I am also planning to enter an art show and need to think about which photos to submit. The kids are so dang wired up and don't want to spend ANY time inside the house and my husband has taken over my computer so that the only time I have to do anything is either after midnight or before 8 AM......

{Whoops! I did it again, another pity party}

Well, my thoughts are leaving just as fast as they come, so I will go for now.

My Mom just got her wish.......

As soon as you get pregnant you start to hear the "stories" from your mom, grandma, aunts, friends and sometimes even strangers. Stories about how you were as a kid or other embarrassing things that kids do or say that burns into your memory bank FOREVER. Well, I did it many times to my mom and as she always said, "When you have kids, I hope you get what you gave." So with than being said.......SHE GOT HER WISH.

First, I will tell the story of me when I was a kid and then I will tell you what happened to me yesterday.

Ok, so fade back to the 80's......probably like '81 or '82. My mom was downtown shopping in the non-metropolis that was our small town when I informed her that I had to use the bathroom. So she asked the small town jeweler if we could use the restroom. They told her that normally it is not open to customers but there must have been something in my face that told them if we don't let this kid use the restroom she will "do it" on the floor anyway. So we proceeded to go to the far back depths of the building where they had their facilities. I personally don't remember them, but my mom has always described them as LESS THAN DESIRABLE. Anyway, I did my business and my mom was walking me out of the store thanking the clerks when I proceeded to announce, "You didn't even wipe my butt very well, or wash my hands." My mom also describes this part of the story by saying she couldn't get out of the store fast enough and at the same time her face was turning every color of the sunset.

Now flash forward to 2010, yesterday to be exact when I was at the park with my two monkeys. The oldest is getting potty trained and was wearing her big girl undies. I asked, do you need to go potty? as she was standing cross-legged at the top of the slide with a look of serious contemplation on her face. I was prepared with spare undies and shorts for what I was sure to come at the bottom of the slide. But to my surprise she said Yes, I need to go potty. So, I surveyed the situation. To my HORROR I realized the ONLY option would be a port-o-potty. I have admitted earlier that I am truly skeeved out by them. Anyway, we walked over and I opened the door expecting to be floored by an unforgettable stench being that it was 3:00PM on a hot, hot, sunny day. But to my surprise it did not have the typical odor that makes your eyes water. Alexandria also surveyed the potty and immediately said, "NO! I am not going potty outside." But I said, it's OK. and proceeded to strip her down and sat her down at the exact moment my brain came up with this horrifying scenario in which I had to pull her from the tank......YUCK

Anyway, while we were inside my son who I thought was inside the stroller had proceeded to get out and investigate the other port-o-potty. I was so proud of my Alexandria for going potty and couldn't have got her redressed fast enough to get over to Garrett and hope that he hadn't fallen into the other potty. Luckily that was not the case so I got him back into the stroller again and then I bribed my daughter with the promise of more stickers if she would stand beside the potty door while I used the facilities. I did not want to lock myself inside for fear of being stuck inside and for fear of having the kids outside and not being able to see them. So.......I proceeded to pull down my pants while my daughter was holding the door. I had forgot that I had "aunt flo" visiting and had a pad in my underpants until I heard my daughter say, "Mom! you went potty in your pants. Oh! Mom, why didn't you tell me you had to go pee?" I almost busted out laughing except for the fact that we were in a public park and she was standing there holding the door open. Which started off at being open 3 inches to now somehow being open 12 inches. I told her I was fine and that I hadn't gone potty to which she said, "Oh, you went poop? Mom! big girls don't go poop in their underwears." Still in shock about this conversation and trying to wrap things up as FAST as possible. Alexandria turned to her brother and said, "Garrett, mommy went poop in her underwears." and then said to him "Garrett make sure you tell ME if you need to go potty."

So finally I was able to get out of the port-o-potty and luckily did not have any casualties. We all re-applied the sunscreen and got ready for the long walk home. We left the park without any incidents and I was feeling pretty proud that I got through that situation. As we left the park and headed home we ran into one of my husbands co-workers and his daughter who is one of Alexandria's playmates. The first thing that came out of Alexandria's mouth was, "My mommy went pee outside and pooped in her underwears!" D. just looked at me with this puzzled kind of "why did you do that?" look. And then he proceeded to say, "You should have just come over to our house." I could feel my face starting to turn the shades of red my mom described and then I said, "It was Alexandria, she is being potty trained and it was her first time using a port-o-potty."

Here is my wish! That Alexandria and Garrett will continue the tradition that I set and have an embarrassing potty training experience with their children.

Back in the saddle again.....

THANK YOU! to my wonderfully mechanically inclined husband! He FIXED my treadmill. So I am back on track again. I walked tonight for 3.1 miles which is a 5K and it took 58 minutes. I hope to have that time cut in half by the deadline. Got some blisters on my feet and they are kind of achy too, so I am putting on the ICY HOT and going to bed.